Sunday, August 5, 2012

Almost One

Zoe is almost one!!! I can't believe it. This time last year, I was wondering when she was going to make her grand entrance. I was a couple of days after my due date. Everyone kept asking me if I had my baby yet. I remember going to Blossom, and Nichelle checked my cervix about this time last year. I was 4 cm dilated, and she could touch the top of Zoe's head. I wanted her to come out so badly. I just couldn't wait to meet her.

Now, I have an almost-one-year-old. She is the best thing that could have ever happened to Matt and me. She makes us laugh and smile every day. She's the most special girl, and the best daughter anyone could ever have.

I'm so happy to be Zoe's mommy. I love her to bits!!

Sunday, May 20, 2012

Welcome Little Miss Zoe has been over one year since I last posted anything. So much has happened...namely, the birth of Miss Zoe! What a wonderful segue into her birth story. I want to document it before I forget too much of it. Here goes!

Zoe's journey into this world began around 4:30 a.m. on August 8, 2011. I had been up most of the night feeling possible contractions. They went back and forth between being really far apart to being kind of close together...maybe 10 to 20 minutes apart. It was a Monday, and I had been working from home for the last two months of my pregnancy. Being the workaholic that I am, I emailed some people at work to let them know that I thought I was possibly in labor and that I would not be working and probably starting my maternity leave right away. I went back to bed and tried to go back to sleep.

Matt woke up around 6:00 (or I woke him up...I can't remember.). I told him what I had been feeling. He said I should page Blossom. So that's what I did. I paged them around 6:30 or 7:00 a.m., and Nichelle called me back. I told her what I had been feeling, and she told me to be sure to rest and eat and to let her know when they're closer together. She sounded pretty excited about the possibility of helping us bring Zoe into this world. I also called (or maybe I sent a text to) my doula Michelle and told her that today might be the day and that I already talked to Nichelle. I told her that I'd let her know if we would need to go to Blossom. I then called my mom to let her know what had been happening. Just like everyone else, she was excited!

 I continued to rest and waited for my contractions to get closer. They seemed to really slow down. I was disappointed. Matt and I were so excited to meet Zoe, and it didn't seem like today was the day.

That night, I had trouble going to sleep again. Around 4:30 a.m., I started to feel contractions again. They were way more intense than the ones that I felt the previous morning. I remember thinking that I much preferred the ones from the day before. I was really uncomfortable. I downloaded an app on my phone a couple nights before to help me time and keep track of my contractions. I entered the times into the app. They were about 10 to 15 minutes apart. I figured that they should be closer, so I didn't say anything to anyone and tried to wait it out.

I tried to go back to sleep around 5:30 a.m., but the contractions were too intense to even move. I woke Matt up and told him about the contractions and how they had been really intense since 4:30. I thought that they might need to be closer, so we kept trying to rest.

I had my next prenatal appointment with Mary that morning at 11:00. I called her and told her what was going on and asked her if I should go to Blossom for my appointment or if I should skip it and go in if I thought I was ready. She said that we could skip it but that we could go in if I felt like we needed to. She said to make sure to eat eggs, which Matt was already making for me. I called Michelle to let her know that we might be going to Blossom today. I told her I'd keep her posted.

It was about 11:00, and the contractions will still pretty intense, and it didn't seem like there was much of a break in between them. We paged Blossom, and Mary called me back. I told her that I felt like we needed to go in. She asked when we thought we would be there, and I told her we'd be in there in an hour. I then called Michelle and told her that we would be at Blossom around 12:00. Matt finished packing our bag with our bathroom stuff and snacks for us. Matt put everything in the car, including Zoe's car seat. I hadn't finished my eggs, so I brought those with me to finish in the car. I got in the car and managed to finish my eggs.

I felt every bump we went over on the way to Blossom. When we arrived at Blossom, it was about 12:30. Pam came out and greeted us. She walked me into the room, and I immediately sat on the birth ball. Mary and Michelle soon showed up. Mary checked my cervix and said I was 7 cm dilated. I was definitely ready! Right after that, I took off all my clothes and got into the whirlpool tub. It felt so nice. As I felt each contraction coming, I moaned through each one to cope with the discomfort. Matt was right behind me in the tub to hold me and comfort me. Michelle was at the side of the tub cooling me with wet washcloths and giving me ice water to drink. I really liked the tub. If I could have, I would have stayed in the tub forever, but I knew I had to keep moving to help the birth progress.

I was all over the place - leaning against Matt in the tub, draped over the side of the tub, on my back on the floor, on the toilet, on the bed, and I think I was even standing up and leaning on either Matt or Michelle. I had no concept of time during labor. I remember always vocalizing as each contraction came and went. I remember wondering when I would get to the rest-and-be-thankful stage. I'm not sure I ever got to that stage. It seemed like I was constantly going in and out of having contractions.

During one of the first times I was on the bed, Mary told me that I had to start pushing. I thought that I wouldn't have to push for too long and that Zoe would be born soon after that. Although I don't know how long I was pushing, I'm pretty sure I was doing it for a long time. There were a few times when Mary and Michelle told me to use the energy that I was putting into vocalizing into the pushes. I tried to do that as much as I could.

My water hadn't broken, and I remember Mary saying that she might have to break my water bag if it didn't happen within the next hour or so. I knew that I didn't want to have to do it that way if I didn't have to. Not too long after that, Mary and Pam left the room. I was on the toilet with Michelle, and Matt was with me. I was leaning forward on Michelle and pushing. I remember really trying to focus on the pushes and making them count. My head was down, I pushed, and I heard a popping sound. I felt something go into the toilet, and I asked Michelle if that was my water breaking. She said she thought it probably was. I was so happy to know that it broke on its own. As soon as Mary and Pam came back, we told Mary that my water broke.

There were so many times that while I was pushing, everyone was saying that they could see Zoe's head come out a little. With every push her head would pop out but then go right back in when I stopped pushing. Every now and then, I would reach down and feel her head. One of the times I was on the floor, someone gave me a mirror so that I could see her head. I remember saying that I couldn't see her head because I didn't have my glasses on, which I had taken off way back when I was in the tub. Someone gave me my glasses and then the mirror. I saw the top of her head. I wanted so badly to meet Zoe. When I saw her head, it made me want to keep working on helping her out so that I could meet her.

There was a point when I noticed that the sun was going down. I knew that I had been in labor for a really long time. I was tired, but I knew that I had to keep pushing. After maybe a couple of hours of pushing, Mary said that she might have to snip me a little. I didn't want an episiotomy, but if Mary said that she would have to do it to help Zoe come out, then I knew that we needed to do it. I laid on the bed while Mary made a teeny tiny incision. She told me to push, and soon after, I felt Zoe come out. Matt caught her and put her on my chest. I finally got to meet my little Zoe. At 8:47 p.m. on August 9, 2011, weighing 8 lbs., 10.5 oz. and 21 inches long, Little Miss Zoe came into this world.

Zoe on my chest right after she was born

I was bleeding a lot after Zoe came out. Mary said that she might have to call 911 if it didn't stop soon, but she was able to stop it. Michelle helped me breastfeed Zoe for the first time. She latched on without any trouble. I stayed up pretty much all night feeding and holding Zoe. I think all the adrenalin from having her kept me going. We left the next day around 3:00 p.m. to start our journey as a family of three.

Zoe's first picture with her daddy

Zoe sleeping between Matt and me while at Blossom

Now, nine months later, we have the cutest little girl in the world. We love her, and she loves us. All the work that went into birthing her that day was so worth it. I will never, ever regret having her the way I did. Naturally...feeling everything...beginning with the contractions from the day before to the pure, indescribable joy that I felt when Matt put her on my bare chest. I love my little Zoe Akina Kerr. I love her with all my heart.

I'm so happy that I had Zoe at Blossom. Nichelle was great during all of my prenatal visits. Mary was awesome during my visits with her and during Zoe's birth. Pam was so comforting and made the most delicious smoothies while I was in labor. I'm pretty sure she made me other stuff to eat during labor, and I'm pretty sure I liked whatever she gave me. Michelle was the best, too. She was so calm and encouraging. Of course, Matt is the greatest husband ever. He was so loving and encouraging throughout the whole thing. I had the best the prenatal and birth team ever!

Sunday, April 17, 2011

24 weeks

It's been a while! I'm about 24.5 weeks today. Matt and I can't wait to meet Zoe. For anyone who doesn't know, we decided to name our baby Zoe Akina Kerr. I'm slowly but surely starting our baby registry at Target and Babies "R" Us. There are so many things to think about and do before Zoe is born. She's going to be here before we know it. We're definitely excited, though. Someone from work already gave us a little swing for Zoe and a big bag of clothes. I haven't gone through the clothes yet, but I'm sure they're super cute.
Until next time, everyone...

Saturday, March 19, 2011

It's a girl!

On Wednesday Matt and I found out that we're having a little baby girl. We are so excited! Now, it's time to start buying baby stuff. Yay!

Saturday, February 26, 2011

17 weeks

Here's another picture. Matt took this on Thursday night. I can't believe the rate at which my belly is growing. It's amazing. Our next doctor's appointment is on March 16th. We will have our ultrasound on that day, so I hope the baby will let us see him or her so that we can see if it's a him or her. Mark your calendars, everyone! :)

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

My Belly

I'm 14 weeks today. Here's a picture of my belly that Matt took a couple of nights ago. :)

The baby is now the size of a lemon and is making facial expressions!

Saturday, January 29, 2011

Catching Up

Hi everyone! It's been a while. I've been busy with work and cleaning up our old house. The good news is that the old house is super clean, and we handed over the keys to the property manager. We don't have to think about that house again. Yay! We also closed on our new house last Monday, so we're officially homeowners. That's another yay!

The pregnancy is still going well. I'm still feeling sick, but I'm hoping that the morning sickness goes away soon. I'm now between 13 and 14 weeks (or maybe 14.5 weeks). During our last prenatal appointment, the midwife said that it looks like I might be one week later than we originally thought. I'll have to ask her about that the next time we see her, which will be in a couple weeks. I talked to the midwife yesterday on the phone, and she said the morning sickness should subside this week or next week. I certainly can't wait.

As of today, the baby is as big as a peach! I love that the baby apps that I have on my phone compares the baby's size to fruit. My stomach is growing and growing. I finally bought a Bella Band to wear with all my regular pants. It really helps keep my pants on, especially when I can't button my pants. :)

Well, I'm off to run my Saturday errands. I hope that everyone has a great weekend. Until next time...